7:05 PM, Accidentally On Purpose
Sunday, May 9, 2010
Ruby Ruby Ruby Ruby! Rose. (:
Please dear whoever, let the next 6 months pass quickly.
Let me make full use of the 6 months,
but let it pass by me so quickly that i wont have time to feel any pain.
Hopefully through some kind of miracle,
i'd make it through this torturous and super-fucking annoying year.
Because right now, although its only the fifth month, i'm so fucked up right to my head.
Uhuh, right to my forehead. Books, paper, more books, more paper.
I'm a total fuck-up now.
Fie: Lets meet for a drink or something. Have some fun, its been sometime.
Me: Oh okay! Eh wait, let me think first if i still remember how to have fun..
Haha yes, i truly am a fuck-up at this current moment.
I will not lie and pretend i'm having the time of my life.
I will not step gerek like some people.
I will tell the truth, and the truth is that i'm really really mentally drained.
With no particular person to write love on my arms,
i'm living laboriously on caffeine and the occasional nicotine.
I know it's not healthy, i don't need one more extra person to tell me that.
I appreciate everyone caring, but i don't even really care what i do anymore these days.
Don't waste your time trying to coax me into living a healthier life.
I won't listen.
Ok so here's the deal.
If i get one more push from anyone, i'll let it go.
I'll let everything go.
And i'll not give a flying fuck if anyone will hate me for letting it all go.
Okay, btw i think i'm in love with Ruby Rose.
