1:38 AM, Hanging Abit On, So Contagiously.
Wednesday, January 6, 2010
I think it is okay to kinda rush abit and be abit kiasu now, because after all,
i have less than 10 months before the big O. .
Less than 4 months before my favourite O paper.
Around 5 months before Prelim 1.
Yes, its only the 2nd day of school and i'm already so kiasu.
I already miss hanging out on weekdays at night.
Haha, but ironically when it comes to school, i can't help being kiasu.
Chey~ last yeaar in school.....
Hahahahahahaha. :D
Ok, so its been quite long since i last got cracking on Chemistry.
I saw this on my paper today in class.
(or i think the equation was something like that)
Pb + MgO ---> PbO + Mg
I stared at it for a while then i gasped. Then i smiled and laughed to myself.
Then i felt sad for a while. Then i sighed.
Pb.. :(
Pb was me, my name.. :'(
They told me im going too fast. And im starting to agree.
What am i going so fast for?
I guess i was just desperate to prove to myself that i'd be fine with
some other people and not with you.
I think i should stop this. I'd be so much better on my own.
I don't want to play games with anyone's heart, or even with my heart.
I dont know how i should put this.
I don't know what i've got myself into.
And i don't know if i can really be bothered actually.
I once told myself that i could never start all over again.
I could never play introductions with someone new all over again.
Its stupid, but i'm really starting to see that i was right.
Because yes, i've tried playing introductions and shit
but no, it didnt work out.
You see, no matter how many corners i turn,
how many circles i go around,
how many walls i climb, how many people i talk to,
ultimately, there's still only one person who could make me,
and break me at the same time.
I know now that there will always be only one person
who can give me those feelings.
There is only one person who i would take a shot on when
the time's right.
Yes world, i'm being stupid but i really miss being told that i'm the most
merepek girlfriend ever but....
(and then you smile...),
"i still love you anyway".
if only i were strong enough, i'd give just about anything to spend a night
with you then go home like i never knew you.
but i can never do that. i was never that strong.
how can i ever forget you if i still go to bed every night hoping you're safe and not getting into any trouble? how can i ever sia?
goodness, i dont know whats wrong with me,
i just really miss you so very much. :(
