1:54 AM, There's No Comfort In The Truth, Pain Is All You'll Find.
Tuesday, June 9, 2009
In that one touch, i feel that tinge of euphoria.
And then my heart reverberates against my chest as i shiver, relishing in your embrace.
In there, i forget the world around me, as i flood my memory with happy times.
I suddenly find it easier to swallow the bitter memoirs away.
Everything just seemed easier than they were before.
In that one touch, i feel the presence of sadness too.
I suddenly can't look you in the eye, because i fear i might tear up.
I don't understand why i feel so frightened.
And i suddenly realise that i fear losing what's mine.
YOU.
I'm selfish, and i know it.
I don't want to screw things up.
I wonder why your simple words can get me teary, and i wonder how the feeling stays even after the fifth time i read those words.
I can't explain how whatever you do affects me, and how you touch my heart even when you're laying half asleep on my lap.
I can't explain the feelings that rush into me as i look at you peacefully sleeping, all huddled up like a baby.
I can't explain why my eyes suddenly get all prickly,
and why everything i see suddenly seem so hazy.
And as i stroke your hair and your face, taking in the contours,
and how your lips are shaped,
i can't help but smile, thinking how natural this is.
But as you open your eyes and smile at me, i look away.
I look far away, and i realise that i am afraid.
I feel that speck of fear deep inside, because i secretly know that forever would end someday, somehow.
I've watched others go in and out of that phase.
But with you, i know i can't face that.
I know i just can't.
you are just so special to me.
