9:10 PM, Self Restraint.
Sunday, May 31, 2009
Life's a joke.
And god damn it, sometimes i cant stop laughing.
Do you realise how you can suddenly just burst out laughing while staring at practically nothing in the middle of the train?
And here's the catch. You're alone.
Its so scary.
I gotta practise some self-restraint.
And right, what she told me a few days ago got straight to my face.
Smacked me in the nose, woke me up finally.
I think i have to stop avoiding some things.
Like she said, i gotta stop avoiding confrontation.
"Stop being nice anymore."
That got me thinking- i have been pretty nice & harmless for the past six months.
I dont know why! Haha.
And thinking again, it'd be nice to just bitchslap if i want to.
Okay so those who know about this (prolly just 3 people),
i know it happened so long ago.
We should all move on & forget all about it.
I know she's itching for me to forget it.
I know she thinks i've forgotten it. Its not that i hold grudges.
Its more that im hurt, cos it came from someone i thought i could trust.
All those days of pouring my heart out to her...
And then i found out this.
Imagine how hurt i was. Ruz, you know right?
She's so lucky that i still regard her as a friend,
that im actually afraid of losing her as a friend.
If i wasn't, i would have taken no chances.
God damn it, i really feel like slapping her face now.
But no, i won't. I should just continue being nice.
Cos im sure people like me better when i'm nice.
Haha! Its true whaaaat.
You always like someone better when she's nice.
