7:18 PM, Colour Me Blue I'm Lost In You Idiot
Wednesday, December 3, 2008
This is the point of time where i wanna be bothered but i just can't be?
I'm missing the wrong people, dreaming of the wrong people, talking to the wrong people, thinking of the wrong people.
Its just so......... wrong?
Idiot.
I woke up in stitches today.
Feeling the opposite of how im supposed to feel.
Seriously though. I think i'm losing my sanity.
Where's my azizi?
Where are my party friends? Farhan?!
Guys, once my face has healed, and all the sunburn has gone away,
please take me out to have fun.
Given the situation i am in now, excitement is inappropriate.
But right now, daft as it is, i need excitement, and i need fun.
I need to get into trouble.
Maybe getting arrested would be fun.
I'm sick of freaking out every second, wondering what's going on out there.
See, i told you i'm losing it.
Stupid.
I find myself cleaning the toilet walls while im bathing.
How is that supposed to be "okay"?
Naffshit, there is something wrong with me.
I am so bloody sick of staying safe.
I am so bloody sick of staying away from trouble.
I am, i really am.
Maybe i should go and do something big.
Because with dudes like them, anything's possible.
And nothing, is impossible.
Geez. Geeky.
I wanna follow my friends back to their kampung on Hari Raya Haji.
Please, Ruz? Or Anna? Oh, and azizi?
I'll be like an extra there, but does it really matter?
I don't mind.
Just remember to forget that you brought me along.
Then i can stay there forever and ever.
Maybe i can hook up with a kampung boy or girl.
And we'll have babies.
Oh, wouldn't that be exciting?
Git. I sound like a dipstick.
Told you i'm unwell.
