3:27 PM,
Thursday, April 3, 2008
i've been super damn busy these few days..
gosh,sometimes the hecticness of life is just TMTH.
Too Much To Handle..
I'm not sure if i can keep up and i'm having it all up to my forehead.
Lets try and forget everything and just meditate..
Hah,like as IF..i never understood the art of meditation..i dont think it'll be very wise of me to try it out cos chances are that i would just go mad,instead of being calm.
I am exhausted,like totally literally drained..Physically AND mentally..
i'm still searching for the will to carry on..i'm not finding anything yet..
no prior motivation,no nothing..
at least i had fun yesterday while going shopping(again!hah,its a diff kind of shopping though)..
Interviews,pictures,more interviews,more writings,laughters..and yes,i'll mention this. "paisehness"..
i'll not elaborate..its not that much of a big deal..i mean,i was 'paiseh' to a guy and most of the time,i dont care about being paiseh to guys..
so anyway,i guess i had fun yesterday..
i am dreading Sec Two camp..please dont call me weird..i was damn excited before but now,seeing all these things i have to do before i can actually go for the camp,i almost want to say,"You know what,its okay,i dont wanna go for the camp.let me stay in school and finish up all these things i have to do."
i feel like that..its feels so frustrating to have all these things to do..and things to do totally means catching up on maths..
life is a chore sometimes..its like sweeping the floor..
i feel like i DONT WANT to sweep the damnish floor,so i let go of the broom,and i dont sweep the floor..
its the same feeling i get towards life..
i feel like i DONT WANT to live life,but can i let go of it like i did for the broom?
Can i let go of life?i cannot..i mean,i can but i dont want to..
i'm not an assie stupid person so no,i'm not letting go..
i want to let go but i know i cant let go so i dont let go but i still feel like i want to let go but i know i cant let go so i wont!
I WONT.
there's still so much ahead of me..i'll be stupid to give up on life..
and im not stupid.
thats final then.
lets look on the brighter side of life.
(:
JULES!
i love you and ur jet black porcupine-at-the-back hair so PLEASE do NOT highlight it blonde.
i'll ignore u if u do.hahah
(:
