5:46 AM,
Wednesday, April 23, 2008
EARLY RISER. SO IRONIC.
STUBBORN PAIN. ME.
Im up early again. And im bored.
Okay lets write.
About pain. And hurt.
I know what those two feel like now. Oh yeah. (:
No, its not exactly fun. haha.
I realise that there are people who are stubborn even when they feel pain and hurt. Like me. I'm admitting it here.
Refusal to believe truth, firmness to believe only what they believe.
Thats stubborn. Somehow, nowadays,i feel like im slowly unwrapping myself. Just like a present. Only that each piece of wrapping comes off slowly.
I'm revealing these sides of myself that i didnt know existed.
Obstinate, Egoistic.
Some people telling me that is one thing. It doesnt quite bother me when they tell me im a stubborn, egoistic little bitch.
What bothers me is that, im starting to see that they are right, and i was wrong. I did know myself,who i am. But not well enough, to see who i really am. And of course it sucks. Thinking about it, what doesnt suck anyway? Everyone is saying life is this, life is that, life is sucky, and i think so too. Sometimes, i agree that life is sucky. But if life sucks, then we suck with them too, cos we are the ones controlling them. We are the ones controlling our lives. They dont happen on their own. You rule your own life, you dont let others rule it.
Okay then. I can get awfully argumentative on some things. This can go on and on and i can create a novel out of this. (: Thats my dream.
So i'll stop here and i'll write again soon.
Goodbye.
simple words, dignified meaning.
Miss Used To Be.
