2:31 PM,
Friday, January 18, 2008
There are things that i don't share with people.That i just don't.I'm not sure if i'll ever share it with people but...we'll see.
Anyway,i feel better today.Firstly,cos its a Friday,and its early dismissal day.Secondly,my understanding of maths has moved up a notch.Applause please.Yay,thanks.
Okay,the bad thing.The scary one.The unlaughable thing.The thing that i make fun of with my friends then i toy the idea around my head.
The thing that i dunno if its right or wrong.The thing that feels so super right but everyone sees it as wrong.The thing that i'm so afraid of admitting to.The thing that makes me toy with my fringe and then i dream and think of the THING.
What's the THING?
Okay,guys,Freaking out is okay for now.
I've got a girl crush.
Did i already mention that?
Okay,never mind.
So,i've got a girl crush!
It feels so normal and right and i get excited when i see my girl crush,then i laugh inside and tell myself,"Girl,are u a potential lesby?"
Then i stop laughing.And i freak out.And i think about boys,then my girl crush and i choose the latter.And i freak out again.
And then i think of John Johnson and Enrique Iglesias and i melt,then i think of my girl crush as i melt,and i choose the latter,still.
And then i think of Enrique Iglesias and i keep thinking of him(cos i used to LOVE him),then i think of my girl crush,and i melted.Not cos of Enrique.But cos of my girl crush.So i actually chose the latter.
And then i think of the guy holding case no.3 in DEAL OR NO DEAL,and my girl crush,and i finally,finally,oh finally!chose the GUY.
He's cute don't ya think?*melting here!*
And then right now,i know u guys are arching your damn eyebrows so high its touching ur hairline.You guys don't understand,do you?
Kay,i'll make it simple.
I have a crush on a girl.Who looks SO mush like a guy that i've fallen for her(at this point of time,is it my fault?She's TOO handsome!okay,euww.)
And P.S:She's not from CSS.No,no way,never a way,although yeah,there are SOME handsome girls in CSS.
Keyword:SOME.
Okay,okay,and then when i think of her and my imagination starts getting vivd,i freak out cos i think of myself as 'one of those'.I mean,not that its a bad thing but yeah,umm,i dunno if its a bad thing actually but maybe its not.
ANYWAY,then i think of boys,in an effort to find some love for them,but all i find and hear is the sound of crickets.And then i freak out again cos i'm scared i'm one of those.
Then i laugh and i keep laughing and i keep grinning and smiling to myself.And i don't even know WHY.
See what i'm trying to say?
No?
In general,i'm going bonkers over the guy holding case no.3 in DEAL OR NO DEAL.
AND,i'm going bonkers over my girl crush too.
And i'm wondering,is this okay?I keep wondering if its okay and i can't even answer myself cos inside,i'm laughing so much(still dun have a reason why i'm laughing.Whats funny?i dunno.)
So i know this makes me sound real half-half,or bisexual if u want,but i don't care.
See,i'm saying i don't care again!So u guys know how i feel,right?If u don't,read my previous post and you will understand.
Anyway,for the third time(or so),i'm saying this.
I've got a girl crush.
The fullest of stops right here.
P.S:I meant fullstop,alright,in case u don't know.
P.P.S:Girl crush..........Ugh.....bud i'll smile alrighty.
:)
